Depression

Don't touch me right now.. I don't want to be touched by anyone, or talked to or hugged. I don't want anyone anywhere near me. I am upset. And not even for the reasons one would think, but I can be upset. I'm so upset I'm shaking and crying and sobbing, so upset I talked to chad tell 4am, and cried, and talked.. chad wasn't much help but at least he listened. I had to cancel my ampho appointment due to stress, I was to upset to go my body is reacting violently to standing or moving. I just want to be alone, with my headache, curled up in my bed to cry.. and worse just sit and stare at the wall. Andrew tried to hold me but I couldn't stand it. My body doesn't want any food, or water, or meds or to be touched or talked to. I just want to be alone.. just leave me here to disappear please.